A long time, again. Just thought id fill in anyone who still follows me on what I'm doing with my life.
first of all its worth mentioning that about 6 years ago my mental health got not so great. I think in modern times we've gotten pretty bad at looking after ourselves in that regards - if a carpenter gets a nail in her hand, does she push on, believing that if she carries on making good work the nail will become less of a problem? No, she stops, takes the nail out and treats her wound. Perhaps even takes the rest of the week off if the damage is bad enough. No sane person would suggest the former but that's how we treat our minds.
This was essentially what I tried to do and it kiiiiiiled my creativity. Id get a week or two into a new project and id just ride it straight into a ditch. I guess my mind was just trying to protect me - if I don't make anything then I cant get hurt. Then art became this exhausting battle against the very thing that was trying to protect me. That's the long and short of why you haven't seen me around for a while.
I know that seems gloomy and negative but it's an important part of my story, every happy story has some ups and downs along the way.
I think when an artist gets far enough along their journey they will face a valley they have to cross. You wont know how deep it is, or how dangerous the climb is, but if you can get to the other side you wont believe how much you've grown. Only you will know how to cross that valley but it will take courage and strength. Perhaps the courage to stop and heal, perhaps the courage to let go of something 'good' so that you can pick up something 'great' even though this might burn up all your energy. Or trusting the vision you have,even when nobody else sees it. Anyway, I can say that these 6 years are probably the time ive grown the most as an artist, especially over the last year or so. And I'm feeling really great about it all.
So, one thing that I never thought id be strong enough to do through that period was open a shop and sell things online. I tentatively opened up a little shop on my facebook page, and it actually worked really well! So I decided to take it the next step and open up an etsy store! -- You can visit it here! --
I'm also working towards an exhibition in June which is pretty mad.
Also also also, It's still a long way off but my new game is coming along nicely!